But Jesus said, “Someone touched me; I know that power has gone out from me.” (‭Luke‬ ‭8‬:‭46‬ NIV)

If you have been around a while you will be familiar with the story of the lady with tthe issue of blood. She has spent all her money and seen many doctors. She is in a lot of discomfort and suffered terribly. Hearing of Jesus and seeing the miracles she reaches out to touch him.

Jesus would traditionally thought to have worn a garment that is known as the “Tallit”. The dictionary defines it as: “a shawllike garment of wool, silk, or the like, with fringes, or zizith, at the four corners…” It’s known to many Christians in modern times as the “prayer shawl”. It is a very important thing to the Jewish people (as well as many Christians). It was given to the people by God through Moses. The corners of the shawl are also known as “wings”.

Knowing this and the word of Malachi add some light to the story.

“The sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings. (‭Malachi‬ ‭4‬:‭2‬ NASB)

She reached out to touch him because she saw him as the Messiah.

This is all good but incidental to what I want to talk about.

As I am reading it I have to admit that I am not familiar with power going out of me. I have seen many things happen from healing to accurate prophetic words to deliverance to profound encounters with his presence, but in all of this, I could not tell you when power has gone out of me.

I don’t want experience for the sake of experience but I look at this story and think there is something that I am missing, I have not experienced the fullness of his power dwelling in me to the degree that I could tell you when His power has left me. Which the begs another question. What am I doing, or not doing that stops the fullness of his presence in me? Or am I just not sensitive enough?

I think it is something of all three. With many things, the danger is that you can respond with more works, try harder, work faster….but it has to be by grace, out of intimacy; they cannot be achieved by our strength (though intimacy will cost you time and effort it is by grace that we can know his closeness). I am provoked in hearing that there is a greater in dwelling that I have not known, such that as his power moves in and through us we are aware of his coming and going and flowing out more than a knowing of his presence but a knowing his presence go from us like a discharge of power.

Holy Spirit, forgive us where we have grieved you and quenched your fire, come and dwell in me in your fullness….burn like a star light a fire in my heart