revelation of the cross

As we approach Easter I am turning my thoughts again towards Jesus on the cross.

As I start to think of the cross my concern is that I don’t consider the cross as much as I should or could and that I only focus on the cross and not the resurrection. Let’s face it, without the resurrection the cross was just a gruesome death. The one only makes sense and has reason with the other.

Sometimes I don’t know where to start, do I focus on the seven last sayings? Do I think of the physical aspects of his death? Do I merely think of them in a theological fashion in that I am crucified with Christ and I no longer live but Christ lives in me? Or do I put effort into his rising? Sometimes my head spins with knowing where to begin, and then feeling a pang of guilt that I’ve maybe treated lightly the sacrifice that was made.

It is here that I think I am in error, that I treat lightly the sacrifice. But, sometimes I don’t know how to understand the magnitude of the event. In my honesty I am saying, Lord help me, will you give me a Spirit of wisdom and revelation to know you and what it cost you to go to the cross. It is here that I must start, it is here, in awareness of my shortcomings, in humility through His Spirit that I approach Him to try and understand. I am confident that as I ask He hears, though I am frail in my understanding, He is gracious in revealing his ways….for that is His promise to each of us, that if we seek Him, we will find Him.